39 Week/40 Week Check Up

*I didn't update last week because it was just routine and nothing new*

So I didn't know what to title this...since my appointments changed from tuesday to wednesday...I'll technically be 40 weeks in 2 days.

So I don't know where to start....the unbelievable weight gain? Ok. So 2 days ago I weighed myself on my home scale like I usually do so that I could get a general idea of how much weight I've gained b4 going to the doctor. Let's just say....I gained 10 pounds in 2.....2 days! W.T.F. I swear their scales were wrong until I got home and weighed myself again and yup....definitely gained 10lbs. Again..W.T.F. Unless I read the scale wrong that day...I have no idea how to explain that one.

So anywho...I hop my naked booty onto the table. Doc listens in on the heartbeat as usual then she prepares to check me. Mind you..this is my first time being checked....NO ONE prepared me for that experience. OMG. She said take a deep breath and before I could finish my breath she rammed her hand inside me. Child, when I say I screamed....I screamed. I was squirming soo much trying to get off that table and away from her. But the good news is..I'm 3cm dilated..and she said his head was really low. She went ahead and scratched/stripped my membranes which she said is supposed to help me go into labor..like...yesterday. That's probably what took her soo long to get the hell out of my vajayjay. But neway..she told me to walk walk walk..and she expects me to not be at next weeks appointment. We'll see...I'm feeling real confident about the fact that I may be going into labor soon...Hell, maybe tonight.

So ... the next time I post...I won't be pregnant :)

37 Week Check Up

Gained another 5lbs! So what are we at now? 37lb total weight gain? Craaaazy. It's all in my belly tho *as I look down and notice i dropped jelly on my belly from my pb&j i was eating*

Everything went pretty normally. I was told this was my last time getting blood drawn.....YAY! And I had my Groub B strep test done. It's pretty much the same procedure as a PAP smear only..duh it's a different test.

I asked the doctor about my braxton hicks and my back pains...since they've gotten worse for me during the weekend. It's all perfectly normal..(of course).. she said since I'm such a small person carrying a nice weight baby (still have yet to have an ultrasound to see how big he is) that he's partially in my belly and partially in my back. And now that the time is drawing near....he's just really trying to get comfortable..there's no space in there!

So now my doctor's appointments are every week. I go back next Wednesday. I'm just really anxious at this point..pretty soon my baby boy will be here! ♥

My Birth Plan

Being that I will be delivering in a hospital where I do not receive prenatal care and where no one knows me..I have my birth plan ready for the nurse and delivering doctor to go through so that they can get a general idea of how I would like things to go. So of course I'm sharing it with the blog...why not?


This birth plan is to help people understand me and my pregnancy better..and how I would (like) things to go. My pregnancy has been a fairly easy one with the occasional bump & cramp or two, but I’m thankful for it being very….smooth. I would like delivery to go the same. The things listed in this plan are in no way “mandatory” ,of course things don’t ALWAYS go as planned, it’s just a general idea of how I would like everything to go. This is my first child…I don’t know everything! Therefore, any safer/easier alternative to anything listed here is very openly accepted.

I would like to go through the labor process naturally for as long as possible, however, I will be opting for an epidural. I don’t want to be forced into getting an epidural too early in the process that it wears off by the time I need it most. The moments before the epidural where I am dealing with my pain naturally, I would like to be able to move as freely as possible (Not many wires and gadgets connected to me). I would like use of the shower when I get too uncomfortable.

The persons to be present in the delivery room will be baby’s father and my mother. In the case that baby’s father is not available, I would prefer my best friend to take his place. In the case that my mother isn’t available, I would prefer that baby’s paternal grandmother take her place. I will be having my ipod in my ears at all times (unless of course there’s important topics to be discussed).


I will be breastfeeding so there shouldn’t be any formula feeding by nurses. Being that my son will be getting circumsized, I will allow him to have a pacifier during and after the procedure but other than that, NO PACIFIERS please. I would prefer if he stayed and slept in my room at all times unless there is testing to be done that can not be done inside the recovery room.

Again, nothing in this plan is binding. It’s just a general idea of how I would like things to go.

All I Need Is a Baby ((Pics))

So I finally put some pep in my step and finished the carseat and other random things. Here's the pics I halfway promised from the last post ((I wanted to take a pic of his coming home outfit..but I forgot...and I don't feel like going to unpack it right now...yeah...back to lazy mode))

So here's my pack & play/bassinet. Being that I just moved back to my mother's house..there's really no room for both of us to have anything big and extravagant. So he (and I) will be sleeping in the living room until we move in February.
It was given to me by his Aunt. It was barely used....my niece would rather sleep next to her than in her bed lol.

Here's the link so you can see a more...unwashed out picture ((the sun is crazy in that room..i love it though)).
It retails at Target.com for $135 http://www.target.com/gp/detail.html/178-7264634-5545919?asin=B00275N6X4&ci_src=14110944&ci_sku=B00275N6X4 and is very easy to put together/take apart and travel with.

The changing area. I put wash cloths in one of the holders to the side. When I get some baby wipes ((which I have none yet lol)) They will somehow go there too. More than likely I'll have a travel size holder to fit in there.

And in the other holder next to the washcloths are pampers & extra onesies for those "Oops!" changing moments.

Don't mind the pile of crap in the back :)

Here is the swing. I loooove it. It can actually rotate to a different direction so that it rocks as opposed to "swing" and it plays music as well as outdoors sounds. I took the tray off..I don't think I'm really going to use it until he gets a little bigger. Idk..that's TBD.

This was given to me by that lovely lady I found on craigslist.

And here is the car seat. It is Chicco brand and retais for $180 at Babies R Us http://www.toysrus.com/product/index.jsp?productId=3604029

Which includes the car seat base, head & body supports and arm strap protectors. After playing around with it and figuring out some of it's little secrets...I AM IN LOVE WITH IT.

(I took the straps out to wash the liner and everything..and didn't put them back in for the pic. Blah.

This was given to me as well by my craigslist angel.

Then I put in my JJ Cole BundleMe so he can be nice and warm. It retails for about $50 on jjcole.com http://jjcoleeurope.com/original-bundleme

So now I can sit back and relax for these next couple of weeks..because everything is all set and ready! Well minus the fact that I need to pack my stuff into the bag...Everything for Bryce is packed, set up...and ready! :)

Stick a Fork in Her...

((random : I really don't remember posting that last post LMAO))

So I just got back from my doctor's appointment. Gained another 5 pounds.....So I'm at a 33lb weight gain. And honestly....I don't see it. But oh well....I'm definitely not trying to gain anymore. I have a feeling by the time Bryce is born I will have gained 40 lbs. WHOA.
Other than that...nothing new on the homefront. I got BJ's area set up..I definitely want to take pictures of that and post them on here...but whether I actually do it or not is to be determined lol.  I've started packing our hospital bag...BJ's clothes and onesies and a couple diapers (i know they give PLENTY at the hosptial ... but whatever) are already in the bag....but I have yet to pack anything of mine. I've been feeling soooo.....hmm.....I guess LAZY is a good word lol. Lately it's just been like pulling teeth trying to get me to do anything.

Well my next doctor's appointment is scheduled for December 21st...HOPEFULLY I get an ultrasound then. I HAVEN'T HAD AN ULTRASOUND SINCE I WAS 20 WEEKS! I miss my baby :( But of course.."they don't do ultrasounds unless they absolutely have to". Bah Humbug. I'll just settle with hearing his heartbeat....In a matter of weeks...I'll be able to stare at him WHENEVER I want! =D

This was taken a couple of hours ago. I've blown up compared to the last pic I posted lmao.

33 Weeks

Sooo...Haven't updated in a while. Oops!
Alot has been going on...just getting ready for baby and dealing with the constant body pain as well.
Don't know if I mentioned it or not, but I officially moved back to my hometown on Oct. 19th and I've just been getting everything straight and settled since then.
While my medicaid is still being processed, I'm receiving free prenatal care from my city's health department and I'm even cleared to deliver at the hospital I wanted. So that's great.
I'm at a whopping weight gain of 28 POUNDS! I don't know how that happened...but it happened. So now...for the next 7 weeks....I'm trying to not gain anymore weight...but I know that's not going to happen lol. I'm confused because I have no idea where this weight is going. I'm still skinny minny..and it's not like my belly is reeeeeally huge. Actually wait. I think it's all boobs and belly. My boobs are monstrous.
My friend who had the same due date as me delivered her baby 2 days ago! A whole  7.5 weeks early...but she's perfectly a perfectly healthy 3lb preemie. She just really wanted out lol. She went into labor around 10pm Monday night....and labored by herself at home until tuesday morning. Went to the hospital around 9:30 Tuesday morning and baby Destiny was here a hour later. CRAZY! She went totally natural AND labored the whole way in her home. That's something I wouldn't be able to do....I need drugs honey. But she said you never know until it happens....so we'll see.

Thanks to Craigslist and a very giving lady, I was able to find someone who was giving away ALOT of baby items. I received 2 full trash bags of baby clothes ranging from newborn all the way to 18 months. She gave me a bouncer, 2 swings, a high chair, one of the floor play mats thingys, and a VERY brand new carseat. Compared to me only having a crib...I went from 0 to 60 very fast. Now I'm not nervous anymore. I have alot of clothes to start me off as he grows, I don't need any furniture....I"m blessed. I took belly pictures last week for my 32nd week..but I want to take some fresh new ones under the sunlight. So I'll post those tomorrow.

The In-Laws

So...there are a few things that have been bothering me lately.

I'm very familiar with baby's father's family. They know me, they know who I am. I attended a party 2 weekends ago for his grandmother's birthday. (He was there...but I didn't even know it until later. After all...I wasn't there for him anyway). As soon as I walk in of course they notice my belly...and instead of getting properly welcomed...I get introduced by his mother as "we don't know if it's his yet...but yup she's pregnant!". That statement...just put a damper on my whole evening. I didn't want to do anything. I didn't want to socialize. I just wanted to turn back around and go home.

Honestly....I know they want me to do a DNA test. WHATEVER. I can't wait to prove you wrong. But...that should be between me and him. Not the whole damn mothafukin world. And being that he doesn't even deny my son....I don't feel like it was proper etiquette for her to flaunt my "bastard" child like that. The fact that my son and my pregnancy is not being embraced like it was for his sister's pregnancy....it's disheartening and unmotivational. It's like "Hey she's a ho and we're playing russian roulette with this one."

Trust me...if I had a choice of who the father would be...it would NOT be him. So this whole...she's just claiming the baby's his, or this whole she's trying to trap him attitude....Needs to be changed. ASAP. I'm already at the point where I just want to cut ties with them. Do my court thing. And go that route. I don't want his mother anywhere near the hospital...cuz all I'm going to get is fakeness...and I don't want to deal with it. She can visit, like everyone else, a few days AFTER we come home.

I doubt if he's even going to be in the emergency room. I'm nowhere near his priority and I'm constantly on low simmer on the back burner. Part of the reason for me moving back to Virginia is so that my child could be closer to his father and his family. But honestly, I feel like he's going to get the same treatment here in Virginia that he would have gotten if he lived in New York. I have only spent one day with BD. But yet he claims that "I'm always trying to be around him". Um what? No. He's actively only seen me once. Any other time that we have seen each other....it was not due to him. It was because I was invited around for other occassions that he had no dealings with. All the times we were supposed to spend time with each other...he either chose his friends over me or just stood me up all together. So that BS about we spend too much time together and I need to relax and not get mad when he doesn't come by....OVER IT. He's obviously living in some fantasy world with a twin of mine or something.

Baby's father also let it slip last night when we were having a "heated discussion", that his mother doesn't want me in their house "that much". Really? Like seriously...really? First of all...I have never asked to spend the night..every time I have went to visit...I go with the intentions of coming back home. I've stayed a total of two nights. One night because he told me to on my birthday. And one night because my friend asked if I wanted to stay..and I was tired anyway.  You let some sneaky, conniving bitch in the house everyday...but I can't even come visit? L.O.L.

I'm seriously at my breaking point.